This video/post is a little different than my usual videos.
I wanted to share a junk journal I created during my quarantine.
Here I will talk a bit about the creative work and progress, in addition to my thoughts and feelings as I created.
Making the Journal:
I used mostly collaging (my little scrap papers) throughout the journal. It started as a blank graph notebook. I had to remove many of the pages since it comes with 100 sheets and I certainly did not need that many! I will use the sheets I removed for other projects.
It had very flimsy pages so I opted with collaging to add heft and structure to the pages. The initial pages are somewhat scattered and disorganized (more details below) but I used bits and pieces of scraps and incoming happymail and cards from swaps. Other elements I used were drawings and doodles from my kids.
For adhesive I used plane ‘ol Elmers liquid and stick glue. I was not necessarily thinking “longevity” when making this. It was more so a therapeutic practice at the end of each day. I also did not document in chronological order. I spent some evenings just making backgrounds and others going back and adding pictures and elements and journaling.
The various cutouts and printouts were obtained via a link I got from the IG of @TraciMReed and it included a bunch of free files created and shared by very talented and generous crafters/artists. Below is the link for the files. Please visit link for full list of creators.
Times are different right now for us all. Things feel surreal, almost like someone else’s story and we are just trying to get through the pages as quickly as we can. At least this is what it has felt like for me. I have been with my boys and I have been thinking a lot about how often I probably take them for granted. Like, they are here, and I get to see them grow up, except that isn’t really true, because tomorrow is never promised. I am immensely lucky and privileged to have them in my life and have spent more time thinking of the “future” than of the right now, than I’d like to admit.
This time of uncertainty, of trying not to panic and keep my family safe, has been very reflective of living in the “Now” and that is what I have tried to document in this journal.
The first few pages in the journal seem messy, jumbled and disorganized. This is exactly how I felt when starting this project. I found myself going back to add, adjust, redo and finally I realized this was just me trying to “change” how I was feeling so I stopped going back and began to move forward.
As you go though the book, each page becomes more organized, with better color schemes and improved layouts. Again, this is reflective of my emotions and thought process.
By the end of the journal, it seems to “fizzle” but it was more that I had satisfied my need to express my emotions and feelings in this journal and I was ready to move on and let go.
I am quite happy with how it turned out and I plan to begin a new one based on this continued experience.
I hope that sharing this project and my thought process can remind other creatives (and anyone really) that sometimes in uncertainty and fear we can find opportunities to reflect on how we feel, why we feel this way, acknowledge where we are emotionally and seek some resolve, some peace and calm.
I wish you all health and comfort throughout these rough times and beyond.